Job 3:11 Kabbalah

לָ֤מָּה לֹּ֣א מֵרֶ֣חֶם אָמ֑וּת מִבֶּ֖טֶן יָצָ֣אתִי וְאֶגְוָֽע׃

Why died I not from the womb? Why did I not perish at birth?

Read kabbalistic (mystical) interpretation of Job 3:11: and classical mystical sources.