אִם־קָרָ֥אתִי וַֽיַּעֲנֵ֑נִי לֹֽא־אַ֝אֲמִ֗ין כִּֽי־יַאֲזִ֥ין קוֹלִֽי׃
If I had called, and He had answered me; Yet would I not believe that He would hearken unto my voice—
Read kabbalistic (mystical) interpretation of Job 9:16: and classical mystical sources.