Job 9:35 Kabbalah

אַֽ֭דַבְּרָה וְלֹ֣א אִירָאֶ֑נּוּ כִּ֥י לֹא־כֵ֥ן אָ֝נֹכִ֗י עִמָּדִֽי׃

Then would I speak, and not fear Him; For I am not so with myself.

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