Psalms 102:10 Kabbalah

כִּי־אֵ֭פֶר כַּלֶּ֣חֶם אָכָ֑לְתִּי וְ֝שִׁקֻּוַ֗י בִּבְכִ֥י מָסָֽכְתִּי׃

For I have eaten ashes like bread, and mingled my drink with weeping,

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