וָֽ֭אֲחַשְּׁבָה לָדַ֣עַת זֹ֑את עָמָ֖ל היא [ה֣וּא] בְעֵינָֽי׃
Ich glaube nur dies zu erkennen, was in meinen Augen als Pein mir erschien.
Rashi on Psalms
to know this what the manner of the Holy One, blessed be He, is. So it is iniquity in my eyes. This manner appeared to me as iniquity and not justice.