Zitat Kommentar zu Könige I 19:4

Ralbag and Radak explain Eliyahu’s difficult explanation for his death “Ki Lo Tov Ani Mei’Avotai,” “for I am no better than my forefathers” (Melachim I 19:4), in light of those opinions in Chazal that identify Eliyahu HaNavi with Pinechas of the Chumash. According to this approach, Eliyahu is extraordinarily aged and is not superior to his forefathers in deserving or needing to live so long.

I have heard that the word שלום may be understood as an acrostic of the words: שלא למות, ‘not to die;” this would reinforce the tradition of our sages that Pinchas became immortal, i.e. that he was identical with the prophet Elijah. In fact, we find Elijah as saying to G’d: (Kings I 19,4) “please take my soul from me for I am no better than my forefathers;” he referred to the forefathers who had died as opposed to him who had remained alive all these many hundreds of years. Seeing that Pinchas (Elijah) had expressed his disgust with life on terrestrial earth he was granted eternal life in the celestial regions and he departed this earth in a storm riding heavenwards (Kings II 2,11).

Man’s potential in the celestial spheres (what is inscribed in that book) enables him to accomplish whatever it is that he will accomplish while alive on earth. When this potential is erased in G’d’s book, this means that he will die here on earth forthwith. In other words, the essence of Moses’s prayer was that unless G’d would forgive the people their sin, he, Moses, would not want to live. He simply could not bear to watch the misery that would befall his people if G’d were not to forgive them. On another occasion Moses phrased the same sentiment more directly when he said הרגני נא הרוג אם מצאתי חן בעיניך, “please kill me (now) if I have found favor in Your eyes” (Numbers 10,15). This is a typical expression used by the righteous when they experience mental anguish and despair of the usefulness of their lives. The prophet Elijah used similar language after the failure of his demonstration at Mount Carmel, when he had walked for forty days to Mount Chorev and said to G’d that He should take his soul as he had not proved more effective than other prophets who had preceded him (Kings I 19,4). Another prophet who used similar language as a death wish was Jonah who said to G’d: “please take my life for it is better that I die than that I live (Jonah 4,3).
The reason Moses added the words אשר כתבת, “which You have written,” is a reference to something new, a recognition that G’d had been the one who called the universe into existence. Anything “new” testifies to the existence of the One who created something new, just as the written word testifies to the fact that there was someone who did the writing. Moses implied that seeing it had been G’d who had initiated all these forces it was also within His power to cancel such evil decrees at will. G’d answered him that He reserved the right to erase the people who had sinned from His “book,” not the ones who had not. The fact that G’d did not even name the sinners, i.e. the Jewish people, reflects the depth of G’d’s anger at them (32,33). G’d said to Moses in effect: “You are not deserving of any punishment seeing that you have not sinned at all. However, all those who have sinned are the ones who are in line for being erased from My book.” G’d meant that He would nullify the potential of these sinners’ power as predetermined in the handbook of G’d which we described earlier. It is in line with verse 10 where G’d exclaimed that “My anger has flared against them and I will destroy them within a moment.”