כִּֽי־אַחֲרֵ֤י שׁוּבִי֙ נִחַ֔מְתִּי וְאַֽחֲרֵי֙ הִוָּ֣דְעִ֔י סָפַ֖קְתִּי עַל־יָרֵ֑ךְ בֹּ֚שְׁתִּי וְגַם־נִכְלַ֔מְתִּי כִּ֥י נָשָׂ֖אתִי חֶרְפַּ֥ת נְעוּרָֽי׃
Sebab setelah aku kembali, aku menyesal; setelah aku menyadari keadaanku, aku menepuk pahaku; aku malu, bahkan merasa sangat terhina, sebab aku menanggung aib masa mudaku.”
Rashi
I had been brought to know myself That I thought of myself that I was treacherous, (aparsoujjge in O. F.).
Rashi
the reproach of my youth That my enemies can reproach me for the sins of my youth.