ייִדישער מחשבֿה אויף אסתר 4:14

"My God, before I was created I was not worthy, and now that I have been created it is as if I had not been created": Before I was created, that entire boundless time from naught until I was created, of course there was nothing in the world that needed me. Because if I was a deficiency vis-à-vis some purpose and fulfillment I would have been created, and since I was not created until that time it is a sign, that I was not worthy until then to have been created, and I was not needed but rather for the "moment like this" (Esther 4:14) for which I was created, because the moment has arrived for me to fulfill something to complete reality. And had I dedicated my actions towards the purpose of my creation [then] "here I am" (Genesis 22:1, Genesis 22:7, Exodus 3:4) now worthy. However since my deeds are not directed towards The Good Purpose behold I have not reached the purpose of my creation and I am still not worthy like beforehand.